Serendipity

Not a day goes by without felling so stupid and repent for not taking Form 6 seriously.

Thinking about it just brought regrettable tears to my eyes. I remembered vividly before entering Form 6, I told myself that I have to at least, revision for few hours a day. BUT 3 months before future-deciding STPM, it dawned on me that I am not prepared to face it.

Just merely 3 pathetic months left, what can I change ? what could I do than to weep and utter resentful sentences towards the useless me.

I know I just blew my chance of securing 5As and being happily accepted to the tertiary education of my choice. It's tangible, isn't it ? I just let it slip carelessly in front of me.

We're not talking about PMR or STPM here, where we could bury ourselves with books and voila- straight As.

It's THE STPM we're talking about here. I am amazed how I'd changed compared to me during primary school. Scoring best results and never have to worry about anything. I'm caught in an intangible web of challenges in life. And I did nothing about it.

It's no use to repent now...time to forget about fun and games and start what I've always told myself:to study hard. And all I could do is pray hard and do my best in this coming months. It's going to be a rocky ride, no doubt and in the end, regretting about stuff like this is the least I should worry.

I see the future in me. I do.